I have insecurities…everyone does, but I think I’m past a certain point. I don’t think I’m good enough to be loved by someone. It’s a mixed of self loathing for my image and my constant anxiety.
When I do talk to guys, I automatically think it isn’t serious, that they’re playing me, or that I’m just a distraction for him.
I don’t know how to be in a relationship, and I think the only way to break that is for an extremely patient guy to enter my life. And I don’t see that happening soon.